Pretend You Understand.

staycold:

As I passed this photo on my dash, an overwhelming sense of anxiety and nausea passed through me.

This is the shit that ruined my life. This is the shit that left me with nothing. This is what made me hate myself, and what made everyone that used to love me hate me, too. This is what made me a liar, a thief, a manipulator, a cheat, a user, this is what turned my entire life as I knew it upside down and left me where I am today. I don’t even know who I am anymore. Yet looking at this photo makes me want some right now. Isn’t that disgusting?

It’s repulsive what this drug does to you. It really is. If you are currently addicted and want help but don’t know where to turn, or you just need someone to talk to, or you have questions or need advice, please, PLEASE message me, anon or not. My inbox is always open and I swear I will make time for you. Reblog if you have any friends that are addicts and need help.

This stuff has taken over my entire family. It kept my mother from being a mother to my siblings, it is keeping my little sister from being a mother to her little baby, it has completely broken my little brother. My brother still has a sense of reality but I don’t recognize my sister anymore. I don’t think I ever really knew my mom and it breaks my heart.

But Leah, I still love each of them as much as I always have. Regardless of the terrible things they have done, they’re my family. Your kids love you and they always will. I know you’ve been struggling lately and feeling shitty but I hope you know I still look up to you in a lot of ways. You’ve made mistakes but you’re a strong person and I hope you can still see the good in yourself because it’s definitely there. I know it sounds corny but I mean it. <3